Another Renaissance

It’s 2026 and last year left me feeling (both physically and metaphorically) hungover.

While others commenced fitness journeys or went back to work, I spent the better part of the first day of the year laying on my brother’s swag mattress thinking about all the things I should be doing instead. “Shoulds” are dangerous, at least, that’s what my old therapist used to say. I think she was right.

Every new year is filled with “shoulds”. “I should read more”, “I should lose weight”, “I should get my shit together”. At this point, when there are so many “shoulds” being thrown around, it’s hard to tell which ones are worth believing.

The truth is, I’m not sure what I should be doing, and I don’t think anyone else is sure either. This really gets me down sometimes. I definitely used to think I would know by now.

But, the thing is, time keeps moving. Things keep changing, and if I worry too much about whether I should’ve lived my life differently thus far, I’ll only be wasting precious time that could have been spent making it better. 

So, I guess it is time for another renaissance. But not because it’s what I “should” do, just because I have the chance and the hope for a future that looks even better than my (ultimately, pretty fortunate) present.

xx Rose